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It’s hard to believe it’s been another year for amplizine. I’m curious if anything will ever come of it. God knows I want to find more time for it, but I would probably be lying if I said this year will be better. For now, I just want to recap the previous year and leave you with a little something else: hope. I know, right? From this pessimistic schmuck?

It was a difficult year for LilPickle. There were ups and downs, fast and slow, excitement and anguish. I was screwed over by the same people who blessed me. I settled in with a career and living like an adult. I even learned a thing or two about women. There are so many moments to remember… and it’s sad I’ll prolly forget a lot of them. Perhaps at the time, I would’ve been glad to get rid of the worst of it… maybe just sleep the week away. I even considered moving to escape the shit. But where would I be if they were taken away? What if the last year never happened so that I would be exactly as I was before?

2008-2009 was about growing for me. Mistakes are a part of learning, of course… I won’t bore you with crap you’ve heard before. What I want to share with you is the the forgotten part of the story of Pandora’s Box in Greek mythology. Just like Eve, Pandora ever so woman-like ruined it for us all. Sure, she unleashed all the evil and sickness on Earth when she peeked in the box–but don’t forget that she also found Hope jammed in there too. Hey that reminds me of the joke what’s the difference between peanut butter and jam?

I’m not arguing that it was somehow worth it to open the box to find Hope, paralleling it to the story of my past year… just that at least we still have hope. Time to pick myself up and keep moving. And it’s time for me to say something that I don’t say often enough: “Fuck that noise.” I once had a good friend who taught me a great deal of the process of fucking noises… you know what I mean. I learned my lessons and now I know better. There’s no sense in beating myself up over the crap, and I can’t expect I’ll never be disappointed again.

So I hold on to the hope that I’ll find the woman of my dreams, and she will be worth the wait. I hope that I’ll continue to be blessed by God in my well-being. I hope that my Android projects will be fruitful. I hope that I’ll find more time for amplizine. I hope that my Nova will ever return to vehicle status.